Fuck it..

Why is it that my b-day is an unlucky time most of the time?

My internship just turned into free labor cause papers was apparently not signed by a person, whom now is on vacation… So I dont know if i will get any money  for the time ive done at all or if i will get any in the future.

To top this off i got rejected to get 75% activity compensation due to said internship… so i have to get around with 50%

So basically I have 50% from what people count as minimum living costs - wich sucks, big time..

I atleast have an apartment and such, but it becomes a rather big strain on me and Patches economics. I hoped I could for once just relax with money, but no :P

I have atleast started to take comissions, thou I feel it can drain alot of my energy since I both work on the days and stream long hours. ( cause i think its fun and im stupid ).

Problem is then… that i cant get the money to my account ( yet ) so i can only order stuff online - wich is kinda fine but lets say… I need to buy som gas for the car, or maybe need it for groceries.

Im so tired worrying all the time, I cant remember the last time i just went to the mall buying myself some clothes!

Man, I hate my life. Do I always have to worry about being screwed over by everything? I dont ask for ‘riches’ I only ask for ‘normal’.

Its soon my bday

Its soon my birthday and im not sure what to do, I like gathering up my friends and have an awesome time but i feel stressed and worried. I mean, lately my birthdays felt a bit … well unlucky, I also feel so tired of trying to invite people wich i already know will say ’ no ’ or not say anything at all…

I guess im a bit afraid of rejections, since ive invited some sooo many times and failed each one of them. So it feels a bit in vain ._.

Ive been thinking of making this drink event sometime, where I invite folks and they chip in some money and we buy ingredients for drinks and have fun. Since I almost always drink with the same people anyway, it doesnt really matter if i have loads of alcohol at home - we probably continue drinking it next party we have.

But then i think about those of my friends who doesnt drink, how should i do with them? should i just have a normal non alco party until a certain time? like 8? ive dont that before and it has worked. I think?

What should I do? I know its not anything special with turning 27… but I really really like to hang out with those i like… Been trying to invite my nephew but i dont think he will come…

I shouldnt think about this on a day when i feel sad, I just think about possabillities thats not nice… I think i need a psychologist… I feel like im being teared into shreds by thougths no one seems to be able to solve.

Bah, if it was true that games get lost in games I would really want to be lost in one now, then i dont need to think about stuff other then my next goal in the game…

zolah

zolah:

Comission livestream tomorrow, 8 dollar minimum pay and then you can tip if you like the result.

Im going to try my best to be able to buy Animal Crossing new leaf :D

Please come by, watch me doodle and talk about random stuff :)

I will probably make 2 different streams, one naugthy and one nice ;D
so grab your reference sheet and join in :D

More info tomorrow :3

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zolah
zolah:

Zolah Anthro WiP! its not done yet, need to make some simple shadings later ^^
Also, shameless advertising -

Hello, im gonna try to make a comission livestream 25/6 - were i draw so i can afford Animal crossing :3 Ive wanted this game for a long time, so why not?  This is my first time, so please be gentle comissioner-san? ~ <3 Jokes aside xD this will be my first comission stream, so come join me if not only for some nice chat :) Prices - I Think I will make a minimum 8 dollars and then pay what you want? feel free to help me with pricing ._. I also will open a temporary comission slot today, why? well…. I really, really want the 2 person bundle of Dont starve ( with expansion ) - wich costs 11 euro ( or 15 dollars )  I will draw most things, I dont do  underage stuff Others OCs without their permission Mechas ‘LSD Furs’ ( someone told me about that term, since its super tatooed rainbow furs - im not very talented with tatooes or complex colouring )  There might be some other stuff aswell, I just dont recall everything now but feel free to ask :) worst case scenario ill just say no rite? :) TLDR? ONE Comission slot open - 11 euro/15 dollars Comission stream 25/6 - minimum bid 8 dollars  Thanks everyone :D

zolah:

Zolah Anthro WiP! its not done yet, need to make some simple shadings later ^^

Also, shameless advertising -

Hello, im gonna try to make a comission livestream 25/6 - were i draw so i can afford Animal crossing :3
Ive wanted this game for a long time, so why not?

This is my first time, so please be gentle comissioner-san? ~ <3

Jokes aside xD this will be my first comission stream, so come join me if not only for some nice chat :)

Prices -

I Think I will make a minimum 8 dollars and then pay what you want? feel free to help me with pricing ._.

I also will open a temporary comission slot today, why? well….

I really, really want the 2 person bundle of Dont starve ( with expansion ) - wich costs 11 euro ( or 15 dollars )
I will draw most things, I dont do

underage stuff
Others OCs without their permission
Mechas
‘LSD Furs’ ( someone told me about that term, since its super tatooed rainbow furs - im not very talented with tatooes or complex colouring )

There might be some other stuff aswell, I just dont recall everything now but feel free to ask :) worst case scenario ill just say no rite? :)

TLDR?

ONE Comission slot open - 11 euro/15 dollars

Comission stream 25/6 - minimum bid 8 dollars

Thanks everyone :D